Friday, February 16, 2018

BAI MA FEI MA


A discourse as ancient, as someone dance with a corpse, as a loss is mourned, as a pre-existing entity declaring changes and dialectics and antics and the raging of paranoia. That fucking white horse and the denial.

One part of me is not me. The abundance of words I have spew. I am only eighteen. I am not at your disposal. You can never be me. That is both a threat and an insult by the time I am up in the evening. You'd see me with a divine halo, they see me within the frames of the Louvre, you can decide to use me but I will decide if you get to use me or otherwise. Actually, this is it. This is a complete suite of a fine comedy so fine I can hear Gonsung Long laughing in death.

You live for three months, you die off and regret every single words you have uttered to me. I was never about vengeance but I know about misplaced things, just not justice. Put things where they belong to. You're inbetween hell and someplace worse, that is. I'll look forward for small talks down there when I get there but until then don't get comfortable.

You can call me by my name but I will be the one deciding whether you're even worthy to have it to be spoken of. I speak evil. I speak death. But I don't use people at my disposal. If I am damned then, oh god, you have to be a pleader.