Tuesday, October 20, 2015

NO BETTER



I see you happy in the front seat

I see you with all of your front teeth


I sit on the edge of the crossbridge and a room across it before everything glitches to a halt and your face appears from the blurness of the moment. Your face in the dark void of a room unknown. I bring myself to my feet and maybe I had imagined how much of a waste of feelings this is. 

I see you around with a string of necklace choking your head and I fall in love with the way you lean to your side and how graceful you move. This crossbridge reminds me of this one time I was laughing so hard with some anonymous blur of humans and I saw you. Back before I knew you. 

Now, I am standing at the edge of this collapsing structure but I just can't bring myself to end it. Everything. I still want you and I want you and I want to be sitting in the same room with you and maybe I can sit across the room where you will only see a grained pixel of me instead of me through your glasses and we could talk about anything you want to but I am here and you are there. 

We might seems a few metres away but we are actually worlds apart. This crossbridge is a hell damned place for me because now I know this is where I can find you. The hues glitch once again and the world followed its own course. I am no longer there.