Wednesday, October 7, 2020

SIARAN ULANGAN


Sheeps and shoes with thick sole, visas and holiday homes?
Maybe a glass bottle perfume.
All I could got her was a pack of sunflower seeds. It was one ringgit at the 7-eleven.
The honey almonds were pricey and there was none in the clearance box (if it's in the clearance box I could get one for one ringgit). So I just took the seeds.
A celebratory gift of heartbreak anniversary.

Then I was at the tasik, thinking of leaving (it's all I do since 13).
I wonder if either of them thought the last 20 years was a complete waste now that it got
tossed into the waste bin. I'm 20 years old.

I'm pissed. Totally pissed that there were no honey almonds in the clearance box.
I couldn't be sure that anything said in this house comes from the heart because none
of us has one. So I cursed the honey almonds I never got to buy for her and scream-cried the words
to the songs that used to make me happy on the way home.
Then I cried everywhere I could.
That damned honey almonds.