Insecurities spill through the cracks just the way a river flows in between rocks.
I'm just now seeing that all of the tough person facade I've put up is to conceal away those little dew drops that have now accumulated into an endless blood-red sea.
The most bullshittest thing about me is that when I burst, the root issues would always come from my inability to communicate.
One thing led to another
now I'm haunted by hundreds and thousands of hard times I've had to tell
you
how I really felt about this whole game.
There is no one else to blame but myself.
I am not victimizing myself, but acknowledging the fact that I should be communicating issues that bothers me instead of brushing it off.
How would people know they hurt me when I do not show nor tell them so?
My friends now are creating more comfortable spaces for me to communicate.
Giving my all now.
Learning to address uncomfortability instead of hoarding it and converting it into yet another insecurity.
