4:02 A.M.
I'd say I'm crying if I could but all I've done was sneeze a million of times and sneezing is not at all poetic in its scheme. In about 12 months, if I'm not getting a chance to get out of this place I'll stay here and rip out my lungs. It'd be nice to stay here but that's a lie. I'm lying. It's not. My nose is runny and I'm telling lies. I hate you.
4:07 A.M.
I have less than an hour to get some rest but my face feels like melting, I'm restless and my feet are shaking and my stomach feels like a washing machine. Maybe it's the instant noodles I had a few hours ago. Oh hey, I remembered I cried earlier this morning during a motivational speech but then I forgot what was it that made me cry. Fuel me. Make me cry and throw me something and everything you assume I can hold on to.
4:13 A.M.
I wish my hair would stop growing ugh. It's spring isn't it? I bought a windchime weeks ago but there isn't a place to hang it. Would be nice if I could hang myself instead, sometimes. Heh.
4:18 A.M.
There is a reason why you're reading me documenting my life and not my thoughts right now. Let's play tarot thoughts. I'm a psychic: tomorrow I'm gonna be gritty and very angry at myself and the peak of it is that I'm going to radiate shit vibes to the people around me. I'm such a considerate human :)
4:22 A.M.
My mother said, "there isn't a place for people without decent knowledge in this world," and in that, she decided nothing else matter than me fighting for my place in this world. I'm growing tired of me. I think this would be it for April. Stay safe. Stay brave.
I'd say I'm crying if I could but all I've done was sneeze a million of times and sneezing is not at all poetic in its scheme. In about 12 months, if I'm not getting a chance to get out of this place I'll stay here and rip out my lungs. It'd be nice to stay here but that's a lie. I'm lying. It's not. My nose is runny and I'm telling lies. I hate you.
4:07 A.M.
I have less than an hour to get some rest but my face feels like melting, I'm restless and my feet are shaking and my stomach feels like a washing machine. Maybe it's the instant noodles I had a few hours ago. Oh hey, I remembered I cried earlier this morning during a motivational speech but then I forgot what was it that made me cry. Fuel me. Make me cry and throw me something and everything you assume I can hold on to.
4:13 A.M.
I wish my hair would stop growing ugh. It's spring isn't it? I bought a windchime weeks ago but there isn't a place to hang it. Would be nice if I could hang myself instead, sometimes. Heh.
4:18 A.M.
There is a reason why you're reading me documenting my life and not my thoughts right now. Let's play tarot thoughts. I'm a psychic: tomorrow I'm gonna be gritty and very angry at myself and the peak of it is that I'm going to radiate shit vibes to the people around me. I'm such a considerate human :)
4:22 A.M.
My mother said, "there isn't a place for people without decent knowledge in this world," and in that, she decided nothing else matter than me fighting for my place in this world. I'm growing tired of me. I think this would be it for April. Stay safe. Stay brave.
