THE MANY REASONS

I AM SO VERY TIRED OF FEELING INADEQUATE WHEN IT COMES TO YOU. I THINK I'M ALWAYS TOO THIS AND TOO THAT, LACKING THIS AND THAT BUT GOD I'M ALREADY TOO FUCKING TIRED OF FILLING THIS EMPTY HOLE INSIDE OF ME WITH YOU TO FEEL SOMETHING. YOU WERE NOTHING FAULTY I KNOW BUT YOU COULD AT LEAST SHOW ME I'M HALF FILLED. BECAUSE I'M SO TIRED OF FINDING PIECES AND SHREDS OF HAPPINESS IN A MOUND OF SHITTY EMOTIONAL STATE.